hari ni somehow i'm feeling blue
huhu sadness is a friend
a friend that companies you when you're lonely
having a walk by myself around tasik likas
makes me ponder of what have become of my life
why is it having kids makes your life brighter?
because baby's are the pursuit of happiness?
the struggle and the joy
of having a baby
but i am too old for that
or i am too broken for that?
but giving up is never an option yet it is so easy to give up
i don't remember which verse of the quran but it does mention that " tiada yang berputus asa dengan rahmat Allah kecuali orang kafir"
indeed Allah is the Most Merciful and Loving of all
after the blue walk, i went to padang sasar nearby
i was thinking to continue playing archery
and then, i stop and ask one of the men that was there
coach paul for the para
and i was asking what is para?
those on wheels
and suddenly it hits me
owh all these men are para
they all use wheelchairs to move around
and i immediately be thankful to Allah for the legs that i cud run and walk
and so many sins that i have done with this legs
Allah might just took it back if He wills
Ya Allah forgive me for all my sins
and giving up? these para men have no functioning legs, yet they still fight for their life,
they go out and find something to do out of themselves and play archery.
who am i to give up? i got 2 perfectly functional legs
i should be the one who gives more and fight more for my life, as i have all the free nikmat yang Allah beri.
May Allah always put us among those who are grateful and those who do good deeds
